Flowers are red, young man. "A" is to "B" as "B" is to "C." Unless it isn't. There's no need to see genetics any other way than the way they always have been seen.

Month: May 2021


I had a long conversation with a 26 year old Uber driver, and he asked me what wisdom I’d have to import on someone younger such as himself.

And you know what, I have nothing.
Considering the last year or so that everyone else had had, I think I’m doing okay for myself.
I’m not completely black pilled but for those subjects on which I am completely black pilled it’s not looking like I’m *mistaken* about way too many of those things.
I see everyone and everything falling apart, people drinking themselves , drugging themselves , and dying of despair.
And then pretty much else everything else I thought I knew or had figured out by now, I guess I don’t. If you want to know how far down the bottomless void is, just keep digging.
I don’t know anything. I don’t have anything to impart. 
Never let the fuckers taste your tears.
Know when to hand over a set of keys and/or a list of passwords and say “GLWT.”
“Let your yes mean yes and your no mean no.”
“No is a complete sentence.”
One bad decision doesn’t have to become two bad decisions.
If you fucked up badly and lived to tell about it, at least there’s still a chance of you going somewhere with it from here.
I am all out.

Every day, a new plague for that little piece of bread.

Certain messenger rna therapies, and vaccines that bind spike proteins to ACE2 have the potential to release a zinc molecule that causes TDP-43 to assume a pathological prion transformation.

It’s problematic to take a couple hundred million people who might otherwise survive a virus due to genetic biodiversity, and give them all a universal binding receptor that is susceptible to a virus. 

Humans usually survive plagues and mass casualties because of genetic biodiversity.

I guess good news, if there is any, is that there are some indicators that commercial batches of certain formulations have been found to only contain 50-some percent intact messenger RNA , versus 70-some percent intact messenger RNA in clinical batches. There is a very good chance someone fucked up on handling, transportation, and/or refrigeration and that some people got injected with random lipids and a bunch of defective mRNA.

If your immune system does its job, it should hopefully reject any junk messenger RNA and not perform any reverse transcription. What I’ve never liked about this form of gene therapy is that it was designed to bypass all of that and force you to take up the reverse transcription anyway. 

Even if it’s harmful or defective.

HIV is an example of something that gets through, but they’ve done PCR testing at bathhouses and followups, which concluded that people are exposed all the time in these settings but not necessarily “infected.” 

This is why PCR testing is not used for HIV diagnosis. Its own inventor, Kary Mullins, said it should not be used for diagnostic purposes. It may indicate exposure, but not infection. Conveniently, he died in late 2019… so he’s not here to raise his usual concerns.

In fact the PCR test may not even be that good at what we’ve always thought it was:

Current tests are complicated, expensive, and sometimes give inaccurate readings of viral load, said Hladik. The two existing tests are done through sequencing the viral DNA from patient cells or inducing functional viral outgrowth in vitrofrom patient cell cultures. Both are time-consuming and expensive and do not lend themselves easily to the testing of new drug candidates to cure HIV. “Our laboratory test is a simpler way to quantify the reservoir of intact viruses” he said.”

You want to “trust science,” maybe you should listen to the guy who invented the fucking thing, or a group of researchers who are trying to improve on PCR because they think it’s … Well, exactly as flawed as its own inventor said that it is?
As I wrote before, 35 previous coronavirus vaccines killed all the test animals and it has come to my attention that four companies already abandoned mRNA technology (Merck, AmpTec, CureVac, I don’t remember the fourth) prior to this. 
So here we are at “fuck animal testing, just ship it!” 
I received a different type of vaccine, which is available in Mexico but not in the United States. I don’t think I would have made the same choice if I had the same information in front of me at the time. They switched types on me and told me the first one is no good, maybe 50% at best.
Awesome, so nobody has done any studies whatsoever on using type A for dose 1, and type B for dose 2.
Just, “here you go!” *jab* science, motherfuckers!
I’ve said this before , but just doing this and “hoping nothing bad happens,” is not science. It’s “faith,” and you’re the ones proselytizing and forcing that shit on everybody. 
You’re … literally even worse than religious types. 

The ADE potential has me concerned but not so much as the alternatives. I’m choosing to isolate and mask and watch what happens for the rest of this year. 

They figured out that the anthrax scare in 2001 came out of Fort Detrick and then they just kind of swept that whole investigation under the rug. We have bad actors who like to do bad things with germs, and apparently no interest in looking into that any further. 

Why would you trust the US government or its “experts” ?

If there’s some other “variant” (remember the whole thing about ADE) that burns through the population and/or has an affinity for TDP-43, I’d suggest bunkering down and sitting it out for 6-12 months. Whatever it is, will burn through the population and hopefully mutate into something you can survive — again, owing more to genetic diversity than anything. 

The whole deal about genetic diversity, is why the first couple attempts (HIV, covid-19) didn’t wipe us out completely. And this is also why HIV is a different animal than it was in 1981 when it would turn your lungs to fucking jelly in 9 months. 

These people are about as fucking stupid as they are evil at the end of the day, their incompetence endangers humanity but it might also accidentally save humanity.

You still have a good chance but I don’t know if I’d want to be one of the first people out there this year.

I’m not saying I’m an anti-vaxxer here, you can make whatever decision you want based on the information you have available to you — but regardless of which path you took I would probably mask up, keep some distance, and don’t fall for the “white boy summer” trope. That is to say, don’t get excited that it’s “over” and do a bunch of shit you wouldn’t have done in 2020.

Keep your eye on Merck, at least they were cautious enough to say hey this isn’t any good, we’re not bringing this to market. Watch who they buy, watch who they sell, watch who they partner with or disavow. Little history:

Moderna and Merck have been working together to develop mRNA vaccines for cancer since 2017-2018:

Merck abandoned this delivery method and sold all their holdings in Moderna in December 2020:

They bought another mrna-based researcher (AmpTec) in January 2021, and by the end of January they threw all their mRNA based vaccines in the “scrapheap”:

By February, Merck was off of the Moderna train, and partnering with bioNtech. Merck’s role is not to provide a vaccine per se, it’s just to provide lipids for delivery of BNT162b2.

Merck might have decided to scrapheap or postpone their mrna treatment, but it is likely that their lipid production/delivery method was the one viable thing they had going for them, hopefully that addresses some other internal chatter with the EMA about “floating lipids and solids” in the vials that they were kicking around in November 2020. Disclaimer: No verification beyond names, titles, roles checking out in LinkedIn and other public sources of information about their respective agencies:


I’ve been hearing people say I had a “troubled past” and a chaotic life , long before I even got into my position on the starting line or had the faintest fucking clue about what problems, stressors and setbacks even were.

I’ve had my entire life to process and react to any of that.

To decide whether to forgive or hold on.

To figure out whether I would “try again,” “try anyway,” or give up or not.

I’ve had my share of trials and tribulations and then some.

I was lucky enough to be born on this side of the bombs.

And some people have real problems.

I always said these queens who talk shit about me are going to lose their fucking minds the first time it ever rains in their privileged, shinypretty, stupid fucking lives. 

Wait for it, you’ll go through a divorce or a foreclosure or get your heart put in a blender someday. Let’s see how you do.

It’s been a fucked up year or two or five for everyone now.

Do we still have a few holdouts taking 100 beach selfies for Instagram and pretending they’re fierce and this is fine?

Am I just peering down my nose at everyone from a gutter?

Maybe this is the final character test.

How are you going to handle your stresses and setbacks, your losses, and your fear?

Some of the stuff we’re dealing with was planned 100 years ago. In that time, has anyone decided to do anything about it, or are we just lost?

Are you going to help or encourage anyone in these timers?

Or will hurt people, just always hurt people?

I think they counted on us bickering or murdering or boog’ing or whatever. For all our problems, I guess we are more civilized than some people were hoping for after all.

Life is partly, what happens to you.

And partly, how you react to it.

Do you dust yourself off? 

Do you try to do the very best you’re capable of anyway?

I made a comment to Scott a little bit ago, that I know everything is okay when I don’t “have to” say a word or do anything. Things are working, people are engaged, nobody’s fighting, and that’s when I know we’re hitting our notes.

I guess there are a lot of people who want to live in a world without a god.

But assuming there is one, I would imagine he or she or it is infinitely more patient than I am.

Or maybe what we think of as god, is a prisoner , an unwilling bridge between two worlds , taking everyone and everything in while his jailers pitch him as omnipotent and fearsome, blond haired, blue eyed, white skinned, and angry.

Perhaps they’re a force that is weeping, unable to close the door, unable to turn off the TV, unable to tune out the collective baggage of the collective consciousness.

What do you make of people when they’re all connected and they have all this information at their fingertips, and then they still make the choices they do?

Do they try to force its hand?

Is the book of Revelations a prophecy or a pattern, have we all been here before already? 

I’ll give you two takeaways for what is said of , when Jesus is finally pissed enough to say “Gabriel, blow the trumpets.”

Forget about the lovey shit, Jesus said he hates the fucking Nicolatians like I hate Stan and Janis. 

Who are the Nicolatians? The tyrants who will fight to their dying gasp to enslave , control, and destroy you. Who have all the fucking power and money and control anyone could ever want in the word, and they want even more because no amount of any of these things is ever enough.

Brutal, mendacious, beady eyed fucking tyrants who would rather exterminate the entire planet than lose their grip on it.

That’s the shit that gets Jesus foaming at the fucking mouth.

2) Who does Jesus say he loves?

The overcomers.

Even in spite of the other things he mildly rebukes them for.

Do the meek ultimately inherit the earth?

Do the voices of yore who sang , we shall overcome ..

In fact, overcome?

Gil Scott Heron said that men die, but not what they stood for.

If I was correct when I said that evil people do evil things, and evil people will do nothing about it –

If we live in an increasingly divided , willfully ignorant, violent, selfish, and frightening society …

And y’all are just going to clap like fucking seals …

There ain’t much left for me here even if I do survive.

I’m not getting into the infighting and scapegoating, the racial, ethnic, political, and religious turmoil.

I’m just going to venture a guess that , everything wrong with the world right now, is probably the fucking Nicolatians … AGAIN.

The Nicolatians are basically the Stans and the Janises of the god damn fucking galaxy. And that would explain why Jesus hated them so fucking much.

Who didn’t hate the Nicolatians, anyway?

They were awful, forever and always. 

Like that Broadway play “Cats.”